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The two dice shaking in my fist rattle together in a beat all to familier. As a gambler of life, the castanets of luck have become the setters of tempo in my little dance through reality. How many shakes do I need to make to let the numbers tumble in my favor? What do I need to do to make them fall in my favor?

Rattle, rattle, rattle, and I speculate upon my throw.

I’m always better with cards, why am I not playing cards? Destiny and the future are always cleared up in the jacks and queens. Clubs, spades and hearts can always be better seen as coins, swords, and cups. Then again the payout is less fulfilling if you know you’re going to win. Hell, maybe I’m a bigger gambler than I thought. Playing strange games to see if its me or god that’s really controlling the game.

Rattle, rattle, rattle, when do I make my throw?

Dice are tricky. You know what they are, how many sides, how they work, and how they might land, but they remain hidden and uncertain until you throw them out there to see how they land. You can never be a step ahead of the die. You cant really anticipate the die. You just sit there and play with them until you finally throw them out. Either to land in a snake eyes or fall into a seven. It makes me kinda laugh that despite the fact I usually end up with the Eyes staring me and my money down, I keep throwing the damn things in hopes of that seven. Smart gamblers know to stick with the cards and logic.

Rattle, rattle, rattle, how do I make the throw?

I don’t lose well, at least on big bets. When it comes to the nickel and dime, I’ll throw these fuckers out without a second thought. Unfortunately with each win the dice become more ponderous and harder to throw. Every bet more tempting to cash in on and walk away from. But when you are used to snake eyes staring your luck down, a winning streak is a hard thing to walk away from. I don’t win well either, and that doesn’t help much. Its verification rather than winnings that’ll sometimes keep me going.

Rattle, rattle, rattle, alright lets make this throw.

The grace of god and confidence come in the same package; a clear head and a lack of fear in the outcome. Throwing ego, fear, and your dreams out with those dice are the only true way to win. That way, despite the way they fall, you can always leave the table knowing it was clean and true. Because when all those things come out for everyone to see, that’s when the numbers that are supposed to come up, do.